Abordarea orizontala a psihicului

- psihicul este redus la miscari, succesiuni -> combinarea lor-> suntem mediul in care se dezvolta noi relatii intre particule de acelasi sex, sau de sexe opuse; miscarile se combina cu succesiunile, succesiunile se deplaseaza, deci miscarea traieste in simbioza cu succesiunea, deci nu ar putea niciodata sa se combine intr-o explozie de mici particule din care descind licuricii. succesiunile se combina cu alte succesiuni, deci rezulta ca o combinare intre indivizi care nu apartin aceleasi specii nu ar putea exista, nici macar pe plan psihologic. tot ce exista este simbioza, mutualismul, acea forma abstracta de convietuire, de extractie a sevei si sevrajul rezultat dupa distrugerea unuia dintre simbioti prin uitarea indusa de psihic, ca o forma de evitare a supraaglomerarii sinapselor.

Precessional motion

Could it be that in a relationship there are people that identify themselves with the precessional motion of a peg top? The couple formed by the forces tends to come perpendicular to the revolution axes of the peg top. The same time, the revolution axis tends to go further from the couple. Its state of perfection represents the faultless parallelism created between it and the couple of forces. The more it tries to get further from the couple, the more the couple tries to crash it under its perpendicular state. The perfection is never reached. The revolution axis never comes across the road having a parallel direction with the road of the couple, and the couple never gets to the revolution axis. It is such a perfect example of separate togetherness, where one wants to have its own life, yet not be alone, hungry for the taste of one kiss, one touch, one simple beautiful thought, one look that could lay the other ones feelings under a soft holey blanket, in that never ending race in search of accomplishment. Is it so frustrating that all the forces in the world, never reach that perfect state? Even Newton was wrong when stating that the revolution axis remains almost still in its position during a year’s passing. How could such a great-grand mind be so wrong? Obviously he did not have much experience in a relationship rendezvous. Like in the case of universal forces and couples created through such complicated (as stated by the physicians) laws and causes, a relationship is no more different than a link of reactions and attractions. The higher the value of the frictional force is, the stronger the link between the two items is. Yet, when this link becomes so sticky that the sensation of suffocation becomes more and more visible and available in the mind of one “force”, the everlasting run, race, hunting, cuts in. Like in a dramatic piece of act, the roles become so unclear, sides are not respected anymore, no one sticks with its side, the hunted becomes the huntress and the hunter becomes the prey.

Jupiter

One year and a half has gone by and I haven't heard a word from you. I sat in that smelly living room, or was the bedroom filled with their memories, I don’t even know what it was more, but yet, I can still remember the heat, the misty windows, the warm milk, the steps under which the floor kept on cracking. I tried to bring you back, to see how it all turned after you were gone. I miss your hair, the way you washed it, then brushed it with your special hair brush, made of bone, the way it curled around the curve you traced with so much care, the way the swallow gathers those little string of human and horse hair, the horse hair has more strength, it is used to build the nest’s backbone, and little pieces of mud, crackers, nutshells, and stitches.

Is that all that we are? Pieces used to make a huge something else? Aren’t we that big something that the rest cosmic pieces need to stay away from the void of happiness? If a person gets to be melancholic, why do the rest of the human beings, two legged pieces in the cosmic puddle, walking lacks of consciousness, floating basic concerns, with nothing to think of but the primary needs, become suddenly enlightened? Does someone’s nostalgia, loss of direction, hazard, fuzziness, uncertainty, unexpectedly triggers that little foreign key in humans’ brains full of vegetable earth connected to a questioning, unlimited source of energy. That key, which is no more than an ordinary one, even if I sometimes want to think of mine like those keys used to open secret gardens, full of small guns which never trigger, roses that are always close to that step when they bloom, but they never do, with birds that have almost learned how to fly, but they never do, with nymphs that have almost metamorphosed, but they haven’t yet done that. Isn’t that what every little insect on this little blueberry planet does? Starts so many things, that it forgets which of those they have started on their own, which is their job to complete, they even don’t know what they know, or don’t know that they don’t know so many things. Yet they know how to forget, and they know they know that.

My key is different. It’s a journal I keep to remember the doors I have opened, the locks it stuck into, the latches where I felt another insects breath, finger touch, pulse, heart pumping with a full capillary dilation, inhaling every microbe, every microscopic particle of my frigid key. This journal has many incrustations, flowers that were forgotten, left aside for new fresh ones, bronze, frozen sticks, apples traded for talking birds, kept in caves made of those frozen sticks, cut in the middle, pieces of the planets it had been to, it just bit those rounded ( hate it when they’re round), models of supreme formation, cluster and handcraft. Formation of many cores gathered in one place not be alone anymore. It is a constant fear of singleness. Yet everything is governed by such a separate togetherness, that every inch of every something’s body, became separate from its formation, shell, tissue, scars that have never healed become separate, giving that whole a lose of memory, much needed, for continuing the decomposing, scavenging for more freshness, for another self.